This is a busy week in the life of Kerry.
Nothing horrible. Nothing disturbing. Just things that no normal person would blink an eyelash at, but for me they are uncomfortable. You see, as someone with my brand of mental illness (bipolar 2 & generalized anxiety disorder), I’ve built this cocoon around myself that I only leave when I absolutely have to. I don’t like admitting that.
The thing with me is that I have to get out and I get myself wrapped up into worthwhile things I never sought out to do. Usually it’s because I think whatever it is can be done better and that I can do it. That’s not the case this time. I was volunteered into the position of Team Mom on my son’s baseball team. This is a busy week with collecting money, turning in money, and distributing uniforms. For normal people this would not be much of big deal. For me, I have to meet a bunch of new people. Go to new places. Then the overwhelming question: do they know I’m faking it? Faking it being pretending to be a normal person. Don’t get me wrong, I’m currently well — the right meds and clean living help tremendously. But there are days.
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